academician life 1: challenged by lab assitant

Teacher is my ambition since I was young. Specially u c the student learn smthg from u and they can apply it later in their future. I feel happy about it. But at the same time v as an academician hv to alert that not bring bad habit and influence to them. but sometime life just not as smooth as you thk.

Even how hard you help the students, if sm1 influence them ..and you cant do anythg. That the thg make me sad and feeling like quit from the education line..but deep in my heart..I feel sayang coz if I quit the thg, the situation ont change and will get worse...the students will jz follow the wrong way.

y I say so? example, I tried to contact a student whom lost a grant's pendrive. I gave her sm money to buy a new one although I not the one responsible. I jz pity the student that she din earn any money yet.

2 weeks gone. I tried to contact her ..through her frns..but according to her..non of them contact her . without any progress/ reason from her, I wait for 2 weeks. Finally I saw one of her schoolmate and i ask her to pass a msg to her that if she still not cming to me then i hv to write a warning letter n cc to our dean. Actually, I jz wan he rto c me asap....II have to intention to gv her a warning letter or any dismerit to her. I wait for 2 weeks !!! 2 weeks u knw?

w/in 30 mins, sm1 response to me..not the student herself .That make me feel weird!!!
the "sm1" stated there she found the pendrive in the last day of the iccbpe conference. That's even make me feel funny..y she din inform me early and let the misunderstanding btw the student and me happen.

Finally, the student cm to me.....but , but...with a angry and ego face. she dumped the money and the pendrive on my table. then she start saying that I'm the one should be respect them as a student. What the hell here? I nvr heard abt that b4. what I have done to make her feel like that?

She is the one not responsible on wat she did and end up ask a respect from me?!! even though that I hvnt take any action on her. She is the one disappeared for 2 weeks w/out inform me the reason and I'm the 1 should blame? She said she got lots of problem . That's the reason she can did smthg like that? tat's ridiculous !!!!I explained to her how if she bcm an engineer and bcoz her family problem she just can run away w/out any words? she silent.

I tot she relize her fault and end up the next morning I found that sm1 wrote smbad words on my facebook....she keep mentioned I din respect them as students..so is obvious that I knw y the student act like that yest evening. i was so angry and trying to delete her msg coz actually i delete her msg coz I jz dun want let others ppl see how bad she is " ..keep guide and influence the students to wrong way..I tot she will understand y i did that BUT....she try to challenge me with the msg stated that I deleted her msg bcoz of I feel guilty on what I have did to the student. OMG...tat's the person I knw since 3 years ago?!!

In this case, there is no effect on "sm1". she could jz stay in the lab forever till old n retired...but how abt the students? did she ever thk about that? If that small tiny thg the student can even show her responsibility..then how about in her future? I really dunno what is her mind...

I really feel sad on what she did to me..end up I called my coll to gv sm advice...yup ..I found a right person ..she really cheer me up..thank you

"sm1" just a small dark spot in my life y should I border her? let it be..but V have to stop smthg bad influence the students...if not, soon or later they will bring a bad attitude to their working places in future. This will bring bad image to the UMS itself. All the work I did just gone. then I will consider myself as a failure academician....t

good lesson in my life

Erm..i jz realiz that I wil only write smthg on my blog when I feel sad...It almost a year I din touch my blog here.... many thgs happen recently...A conference jz finish, my auntie passed away and soon is my viva.( haiz ..really hope that will going smoothly)

About the conference, this is the 1st time I join n helping out to conduct a conference. So much thgs I hv learn during the conference. It really open my eyes. Like wat Prof Awang said, let's it be your lesson in your life. But I would like to say that I feel happy and sad for this conference. Happy that I really learn smthg from all of the secretariat members. With everybody cooperation, all the obstacle solved. Besides of gaining my experience, I also got the opportunity to knw some of the participants. Some of them are African, Italian, from Iran, Iraq, India. My plesure to join this conference act.

But thg jz wont go as smooth as we aspected. Mayb jz too tired, too tension and misunderstanding, the out of control n emotional attudute was really shocked me. I still remember someone yelling that "y always wan to follow the rule?!!!" I'm sure everybody wan this conference go well ...v wan to show our professionalism to others..dun forget, this is an international conference...We are the one represents UMS. Forever, ppl will remember how is the conference going. Hw could v live w/o follow the rules? I cant imagine that one day we need not to follow the rules while driving.What will happen to us then? The thg that make me sad is how could smone support those students that really did wrong? Was he right to say rudely to a senior/ tutor..Ya I knw I'm jz a tutor..but at least they should learn wat is respect!! That's wat Prof awang always taught me... This is the 1st time I really experience that a student yelled at a tutor and lecturer...I'm still remember his face and his voice keep shouting:"you shut up!!!" Is that the thg that you learn from your degree? Try think rasionally...coz soon or later you are the one contribute to the society and soon or later you are the one as the father to a son...Would you like your son behave like that?

I really feel sad abt that..I told one of my senior, the students' lecturer whom futher study and I was totally agree with what she said. "they actually not that rude..but maybe sm1 terlebih manjakan diorang" "who are they to yelled at their teacher?" "the students thought they were right becoz sm1 was on their side" "I am so disappointed knowing that they shout at their teacher" " frenship and profesionalism always can not blend well .... the iccbpe is profesional" "love is one thing, terlebih memanjakan is another thing"...all of the lecturer love student...but not till manja" "we want the student to learn how to respect, compromise etc..." "ya...kalau pandai tapi kurang ajar..thats not a good graduate"

really hope some day they realize about all this...and this is a really good lesson to me like prof awang said..I will nvr learn if everythg just come smooth